LOVE MAKES THE WORLD GO ROUND

I’ve had to read a lot about love these past couple of days coz for real for real, I was this close(gesticulating) to letting hate creep into my life because of certain people and certain situations. So now I’ve learnt how easy it is to let trifling things mess up our love walk with God. Here are important lessons I’ve learnt about love:
We need to stop putting conditions on love, people don’t have to love us back for us to love them, God doesn’t love us because of our actions, He loves us in spite of them and we should endeavour to do the same. There’s no fear in love, it is your power so you might as well use it to glorify God. Love does make the world go round and hence forth I’m practicing love.... I know how hard it is to forgive someone who’s hurt us, all we think of is hurting them back. A little exercise that’s helping me is to just take a step back and imagine God treating me the same way I treat people who’ve wronged me. That always gets me back on the right path.
My second best inspirational book says:
There’s always a lot to be thankful for, if you take time to look for it.
Broken hearts are what give us strength and understanding and compassion. A heart never broken is pristine and sterile and will never know the joy of being imperfect.
Don’t cry because it’s over; smile because it happened
Did you know you could actually practice being in awe? How cool is that? I’m practicing! Peace & Love y’all
Happy birthday Abdul!! May all your dreams come true.

AGENDA

There are so many things I have to do!!! I need to continue writing more poems, which I can hopefully transform into a book eventually, I suddenly got it in my head to write a book and I’m researching for it, I feel like writing something inspirational so I’m torn between writing a diary like kind of story, or just write in prose???? (I need to get my terminologies right I know!!!) But I know I have to write something motivational and that most people can relate to. Any ideas? I think my blog will also be in my agenda!

TIME

No matter how much time has passed,
I think about our being in love,
And how you chose a different path,
A path that made you choose to walk away from me
And turn my love away
Your words turned to be so trite
And still my feelings grew every day and night
My love that overflows, bubbles over,
But never reaching you.
“Why did you choose that road?”
I wonder, or
“Why did I ever fall for you?”
You should at least have kept one promise,
Then another, and yet another....
One day this poem will be complete then I’ll re-post it here!!!

MEETING AN EX

I’ve been having a series of really weird dreams lately, so I guess it was only natural that the climax would have me meeting my ex, this time only not in my dreams......... you plan and re-plan for such a day such that when it finally comes you hope you won’t be as flat footed as I was, but no!!!! First thing that came to my mind was me wishing I’d given in to my sixth sense and worn my heels! Maybe for the false sense of confidence I felt they would’ve given me, but any who............
Back to matters of the conversation, there he was asking how I’d been and he was expecting me to announce my happy marriage and kids waiting for me at home! How could I tell him that the guy I broke up with him for wasn’t a part of my life anymore? Like somehow by admitting that I’d be admitting my failure and how wrong I was to leave him...........
My head seemed to have found a life of its own, where my mouth failed me and there I was nodding and shaking to every question, leaving no doubt in his mind how uncomfortable I really was. Then he had to go and bring up the break up! And just in time I found my freedom of speech again. “Please don’t.”
Was I supposed to stand there like I was on trial just coz I followed my heart?
In hind sight I don’t really regret the break up, there are things I would’ve done different but he’s not the guy I go to bed dreaming of as my husband so the break up wasn’t a mistake, being caught off guard was! Now that I’m cool and collected my response to his question, “what’s new?” would have been: On the outside my life hasn’t changed much, all the change has been going on within. I’m more focused on pleasing myself, finding pleasure in the simple things in life, not over thinking situations just taking steps of faith, but most importantly being happy by myself instead of giving up that freedom to someone else.
I’ve learnt that most times we expect so much from our partners that when they fall short, we fall apart instead of learning to be happy no matter our circumstances. If you’re in a relationship, love yourself then love your partner. If you’re hoping to meet someone, be open to receiving love. PEACE AND LOVE