STUFF OF WEDDINGS………. AND BEING ABIT SELFISH

I’ve been reading a lot about how sometimes we have to be selfish, as a way of self fulfillment and I have to say its been an uplifting experience. Always putting other people first is thoughtful but its too easy to get caught up in their emotions and drama, it’s just as easy to lose yourself. I feel like at some point I lost myself, I let too many things get to me and define who I was, and not until the person I thought I could always trust let me down and I had to reevaluate myself………… but those are issues for another day....

Thinking of what to wear for the wedding I’m attending tomorrow……… I guess that’s what you get for putting some things off too long! I’m feeling sexy, so sexy it will be, besides I have to put my ‘come hither’ face on, can’t take any chances and besides I’m down for whatever!!!

MY WANDERING MIND

Yester night I realized my brain probably runs on speed. There I was supposedly asleep and I was conscious of each n every thought running through my mind! Of course I woke up feeling like I’d been running a marathon all night, but seriously bed for me used to be a place I could just escape n relax and forget about the crappy day I had, and now I realize my days, whether good or bad, are following me to bed!! I have a plan though, n I’ll share it if it works…. Ok been wracking my brain on what to write about all day today…….. Maybe I’ll just share some pieces of poetry I’ve been working on. Come to think of it, poetry has always been there for me no matter what. Feels good to know I have something I can count on.

BEGGAR

I’m writing to you because I love you……..
When you said you had to leave
I wish you hadn’t gone away with your love
Helpless, have no one to turn to
Disciple of tough love,
Hello solitude
I want to stay exactly where I am
In love
With the essence of me,
You’re one of a kind, filled with fire
Only a little too much
I’d come for you but I don’t want to be a beggar
For your LOVE.

WHERE HAVE ALL THE STAND UP MEN GONE??

Male bashing:
The new statement of female dominion? It’s all over the news of late, “husband beaten and wounded by wife,” lots of media hype later and bruised ego at play, husband seeks justice, then blah blah blah……. I wonder is this the end of the male mojo as we know it?
I would never be with a guy I knew I could hit. PERIOD. Sure I like to think in my head I’m in control most of the time but truth be told, I like to feel accountable, know that I can only go so far……and yes hitting is crossing the line.

I digress.....

I’m craving some experience, and then some, I want to do something that’s gonna get my blood pumping again, excite me enough to…… The more something scares me, the more I have to do it. Otherwise not knowing might kill me. But still I don’t want to die right now….and now I’m experimenting with new things!!!!

AM I A LITTLE CRAZY??

I’ve always wondered about chances…….. Do you believe in 2nd or 3rd or even 10 chances? I don’t wonder about the chances others give you, but more about the chance you give them. I don’t want to go through life alone, but am I weak because I feel better when I get to talk to you?
Does it matter that I’m a little crazy?

FEELINGS

I want to scream, shout to the top of my lungs
Curl over coz my sides are aching from laughing too much
I want to look into his eyes and be able to say I love you
Every minute, every day I want to
I want how I’m feeling to be timeless……forever…..eternal……

But most of all I want to FEEL.
Feel your love flowing through my bones
Feel your hot breath next to mine
Feel your eyes poring into me even with my eyes closed
Feel you feel the intensity of my love for you.

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I'm back from my overdue hiatus..... I'm lovin it!!! stay square to read my blogs!