UNTITLED

These are the moments of my life............ My heart aches.
We all have different moments of clarity. You wake up one day and realise in spite of all your good intentions, you can’t control anyone else’s life, let alone your own. We like to go through life acting like we have all the power when the reality is that God is the architect of all, so what chance do we really have?
Someone please wake me up at the end of this year.
You think I’m strong, don’t feel pain, so I don’t need your love? I want to say I’m weak and I need you. I want to say that my world is falling apart, I’m not as strong as you think I am, please pick me.
He’s getting married, and I’m dying inside.
“You’re not my ex anything; you’re my right now, my all.”
You say nothing has to change, yet your world is changing and I’m alone...... I didn’t ask to have these feelings, He chose them for me.
I’ll never say goodbye.
Everyone else thinks I’m crazy. They don’t know us like we do. And our story can’t end like this. I know these negative feelings will pass. All I need is a little more time, and then I’ll give you up completely.
I’m losing all of my emotions
I have expired
I’m miserable
And I’m slowly disintegrating
You’re listening in on my silence,
I try but I don’t speak.
I’m shattered
Missing out on your love
My world has been blown to pieces.
I’m struggling not to succumb to the darkness in my soul.
I love how you see me as perfect, when all I feel is damaged.

LOVE MAKES THE WORLD GO ROUND

I’ve had to read a lot about love these past couple of days coz for real for real, I was this close(gesticulating) to letting hate creep into my life because of certain people and certain situations. So now I’ve learnt how easy it is to let trifling things mess up our love walk with God. Here are important lessons I’ve learnt about love:
We need to stop putting conditions on love, people don’t have to love us back for us to love them, God doesn’t love us because of our actions, He loves us in spite of them and we should endeavour to do the same. There’s no fear in love, it is your power so you might as well use it to glorify God. Love does make the world go round and hence forth I’m practicing love.... I know how hard it is to forgive someone who’s hurt us, all we think of is hurting them back. A little exercise that’s helping me is to just take a step back and imagine God treating me the same way I treat people who’ve wronged me. That always gets me back on the right path.
My second best inspirational book says:
There’s always a lot to be thankful for, if you take time to look for it.
Broken hearts are what give us strength and understanding and compassion. A heart never broken is pristine and sterile and will never know the joy of being imperfect.
Don’t cry because it’s over; smile because it happened
Did you know you could actually practice being in awe? How cool is that? I’m practicing! Peace & Love y’all
Happy birthday Abdul!! May all your dreams come true.